Advice...

I've been trying to find inspiration for my blog all day but nothing really exciting has happened at all. I've been in my room listening to my roommate and two of our other friends' boy drama. I hate drama. I always listen to my friends' relationship problems and it always seems like being the outsider from the relationship you know the perfect thing to do and the perfect advice to say; but being the person receiving the advice is hard. You know that what your friends are telling you is so on point; but when you like someone, it's hard to see that things aren't how they should be. I just had a super long heart-to-heart with my roomie and I realized that I've learned so much about myself. I think it's so important to love yourself before you can love someone else and you need to know who you are. I've been dating my boyfriend for a year and a half now and I've changed so much since we started dating. I've learned so much from being with him. In the beginning I thought I knew everything there was to know about being in a relationship. I didn't of course. I wasn't confident in myself and I didn't know how a real relationship worked. I had an idea, but I had that romance movie idea where you never fight and everything is perfect. Of course that isn't the case. I learned that you deserve to be treated a certain way and you can not accept anything else. Too much, I let him get away with things that were not right to me. While it was his fault for treating me wrong, I was at fault for letting him. It took us breaking up to realize why we were really together.

I am such a secure person now and I feel like I have a strong grasp on reality and my relationship. I, by no means, think I know everything; but I do feel so much wiser. I feel like I'm really mature for my age and hearing some of the drama that my friends have to deal with makes me glad that I have such a great relationship with my boyfriend. I feel like respecting yourself is something that you need to be able to do before you can accomplish any sort of relationship. Too often I have friends that get upset because of rumors they've heard about themselves. But rumors don't normally come out of thin air. You can't run around dating 6 guys at once and think people aren't going to say things about you. You can't put yourself in situations like that. I'm the kind of person that doesn't really care what people think about me most of the time, but I also don't want to have any sort of bad reputation that could hurt my relations. So I'm not going to put myself in situations where anyone could say anything negative about me.

I don't know...I've been handing out a lot of advice tonight and I feel like Ann Landers or something right now. It's just that I've been through thick and thin with my boyfriend and now I know what matters and what doesn't and I just wish I could make my friends see. I wish I could tell them what to do and they would do it and be happy. I'm tired of seeing them get hurt by stupid boys. But like I said, coming from the receiver-of-advice it's hard to realize what's the right thing to do. I don't really know what else to say...except I'm glad Wendy realized her mistake and changed it to 200 words!!!!